well..tell me what to do.

just went for the interview at Changi Airport.
conclusions...
company is expected to grow but its at the beginning of the growth.that only means..they still have a long way to go.
and if i were to join them at this stage..sure potential of growth..but it does means i have to help them to grow.by the time they really get on the path,i probably will not be there or be old already.

but the interview was ok la..at least i show them what they want.the attitude and all,say i was a good actress then.and i some sort of see my chance in getting that position.

drawbacks?the distance!damn..i sit till my ass is sore.and gg to teach tuition will be a lil problematic..And yea..i have mentioned earlier on..its still a 'baby' company.

anyway..will be going to another 3 more..and i hope by Tuesday,i would have at least a ship to settle on.
im very sick of this interviewing life.and i thought perhaps im just u know,useless and complainsome..thinking its tiring and all.
but at least..now i know im not alone.

its really psychologically very very exhausting,and of coz..physically wise too.its really not that easy..like...canoeing on ur own.

and alot of times..i really wish that jason is by my side.not that he is not,but i mean...physically there and so.of coz he tries his best to be with me,but i cant ask him to go with me on my every interviews.firstly..its very tiring for him.secondly..this is my interview..not his.

so each time..i wish he is really there with me,i just tell myself.."stop being childish and that useless..you gotta get use to this and will soon learn to be on ur own too." and i sealed this thought with a secret sigh.

i really wish i have more time with him..throughout this month,i have been gg to interviews after interviews..and he is so busy with Elken and trainings especially.

say if everything is successful..and i start working on July..how would we ever have the time for nice proper dates?we WILL NOT have times..even lesser time when i start working.

i really wanna cry each time i think of this..its like so depressing and i couldnt have to despair.
i dunno how i get so useless on my own..but jason now is like..pretty much someone i wanna be with all the time.i just feel so insecure on my own.

and i really ought to spank myself for getting like this..coz given such situation..how would i able to survive on my own next time.

and so..i just tell myself to get use to this..and learn to accept that is the fact.

sigh...now..i just wish everything ends by this wednesday or tuesday better.have a company to settle down on.and really enjoy my remaining last week with him..well..that is to say i have got a job by this week.

i dare not crossed my fingers nor pray hard..coz..each time i do that..somehow it never work.